Wednesday, February 1, 2012

Life, it is what you make it…..

 

 

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I woke up this morning, being my 43 Birthday feeling a little sorry for myself. There were things that have changed in my life that I have been having a hard time with lately and being “one more year closer to death” as I always say, was not making me want to jump up and yell “Happy Birthday to Me!!!”

 

For one, a Gray streak now runs through my hair where my once red hair gleamed

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My eyes were full of life and are now a little droopy and are showing the years with the bags, dark circles and a few little wrinkles… OK, maybe more than a few

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With the pressure of my daily life for the last 2 years I have added on some extra baggage in all areas of my once not to bad body (picture was 2 years ago)…not in one spot, not in two but EVERYWHERE! at least I am proportioned…

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Where there once was muscle from years and years of being a jock (that's me 4th in from the right) there is now bad hips, bad knees and boobs that no longer can be contained in a sports bra without slipping out and knocking me in the head….

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I will never again get that morning call from My Mom & Moe wishing me a Happy Birthday…..something I never dreamed I would live without

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My babies are no longer babies and the special hugs and cuddles are slowly fading…..

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I have been married for 19 years now and can barely remember my husband and I looking like this…..is this real?

 

But then I turned on Facebook and twitter this morning and was reading all my Birthday messages from Old friends, new friends, business associates and my family members and something happened…..Like the Grinch my heart  suddenly grew 3 sizes…..and I had a look on my face like this…

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And I realized…

  • My gray streak in my hair was a sign of years and years of learning and loving and being on this beautiful earth and I am alive and healthy…. ( and there is a thing called hair dye….halleluiah!)
  • My eyes that are puffy and droopy and showing the tell tale signs of aging are no longer naive and insecure but are now full of wisdom and have seen enough in my 43 years to give me the strength to be my own person.
  • My weight gain that creeps up on me is not from laziness but from having a job that I love that keeps me busy, that consumes my days…. but how many of you can say you are living your dream, working at something everyday that fulfills you….
  • My sore muscles and joints are a sign….telling me I have been living a full life and not missing a step along the way
  • My Mom & Moe are no longer here but I have grown into a 43 year old woman who has overcome many things in my life from the wisdom they gave my and the lessons they taught me and even though that phone call never comes….I still hear them….I still feel them…They are still here
  • My babies are growing but with that is a feeling of accomplishment, each day is new and each day they are growing into the person I am shaping them to be….my babies will always be my babies
  • My wedding dress may no longer fit and the white has faded but my husband loves me still today and I believe loves me more then on the 23 of January 19 years ago….yes we no longer look the same but we are growing old together and I am grateful for him everyday

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Last but not least, I have great friends and family who love me and who have helped shape who I am today….I love you all!!

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31 comments:

  1. I absolutely loved this post- truly brought a tear to my eye...read every word. A very Happy Birthday to you Sonya! xoxo

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    1. Thank You Christine, so glad you liked it

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  2. Thanks Sonya, I needed a midday cry. ;) So well put. Lots to be thankful for as one day passes on to the next. I'm honoured to be included in your circle of friends. I'm so happy for you and all your successes, both personal and professional. 43 is looking great on you! Heck, even Brian Gluckstein says you have great hair! Enjoy your cake and wine today. Xxoo

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    1. Well, I always like to get a cry out of you Nicole ; ) xo

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  3. I love your birthday message. Your are truly AMAZING!!!.. HAPPY Birthday, Sonya
    ....KimK

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  4. OK, I'm pulling a Nicole here! Sonya, this is an absolutely beautiful blog post - you're an amazing woman, and I'm so happy and proud to call you my friend :-) Have a super-happy birthday - I hope hubby and your kids spoil you, you deserve it!

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    1. I am proud to call you my friend too Kelly & Nicole...and all the TBB`s love ya!

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  5. Sonya In every photo, at every age, you just exude happiness and beauty, you are a lucky girl! I love the sincerity in your writing, and can relate to many of your feelings. Happy birthday babe, I hate that you're younger than me : ) Enjoy the cake and wine. ~ C

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  6. Thanks Carol, that means a lot coming from a great woman like yourself....it`s only a number ;)

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  7. What a lovely post Sonya! Such a positive approach to issues that we women struggle with every day... thank you! Happy Birthday to you!

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  8. So beautifully written...Happy-Happy Birthday Sonya. Life is a journey and it doesn't end at 43...it's barely beginning. WTF...you look, fabulous!!

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  9. I hope you have an amazing day today Aunt Sonya!! I love you very much and you are a big inspiration in my life. I know that I can do whatever I want in my life because of you!! Me and the girls are very lucky to get to call you family!!!
    Sending lots of love your way today!!! xoxoxo

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    1. Thank you Sara, your life is just beginning...enjoy every moment. I love you xo

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  10. Ahhhh... 43. You're a young Chickie!! ;-)
    Such a great post Sonya! I've discovered that embracing those disliked (hated?) & unwanted changes that come with the years... finding the positive & wanted... makes such a difference in the way we live our lives. Personally, I think it makes us younger! It encourages us to seek out and experience a little adventure. Nothing wrong with that! Enjoy 43; enjoy 44... it's all good from here!!!
    Victoria

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  11. Well Done! I truly enjoyed this very interesting and professionally composed post! Your success along with the beautiful family you have I am sure are just the beginning of many, many wonderful years ahead of you. Enjoy each day and year as they unfold no matter what the number! Wishing you all the happiness in the world Sonya! Dorothy McM

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    1. Thank you so much Dorothy, great words from a woman I always looked up too for being so strong and independent xoxo

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  12. So lovely Sonya! As Kelly and Nicole said, made me cry. We all feel that way as we get older but as you say with age comes wisdom and experiences. You're beautiful and will always be, inside and out.

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  13. YOU ROCK 43...AND WILL CONTINUE TO ROCK 44, 45.....60.......75...........
    I'm thrilled to be one of your friends, truly! Happy Birthday /Year!
    Mwah! xoxoxo

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  14. Beautiful, beautiful post Sonya! I know your birthday was yesterday but I hope you had a fantastic one and that your family spoiled you in a way that honors the fabulous woman that you are. :)

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  15. What a beautiful post Sonya! You are a very successful and sexy lady! Hope you had a great Birthday! :0)

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  16. Sonya, oh my goodness!....That was absolutely, unbelievably the most touching amazing story ever. Made me tear, smile and reflect. You have touched a lot of lives over the years, including mine. Thank you my friend.
    Shauna

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    1. Love ya like a sista! thanks Shauna...you are one of the people who have shaped me along the way...good friends do that xo

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